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  how I shouted at you - and no more carpet hair...

  My heart feels so heavy, you were my best friend,

  my everyday pal, who would run end to end

  of the field we were walking, then round all the trees

  as I vainly gave chase and then fell to my knees

  with no breath in my body to laugh or chastise...

  But now your breath is gone and tears fill my eyes

  to recall how I seethed - you would not do as told,

  but were lively and cheeky and always so bold.

  I never imagined you wouldn’t be there,

  never believed I could feel such despair...

  Since a pup in my pocket, I loved you for years

  as I trained you - or tried to - through laughter and tears;

  and my faithful friend with those brown eyes so wide

  took care of me too, lying still by my side

  when I was ill or upset and I needed some care.

  So much fun, so much love, so much life we have shared...

  But then the time came when you cried through the night

  and I looked in your eyes but could see little light;

  I knew in my heart you were ready to leave

  so I had to let go, I had to believe

  that those gone before you were waiting above

  with a welcoming home, filled with such love.

  You will live in my heart and my mind every day

  as I walk in the fields and remember our play.

  And when it’s my time, I’ll be with you once more

  to join in the fun that you’re having for sure.

  So I take to my sleep and hope for sweet dreams,

  knowing that life is not how it seems;

  and though you’re not here as another day ends,

  you may be a dog, but you’re still my best friend.

  My Dad

  It has been so long since you left me, so long that I have not laughed with you or hugged you. I miss you every day with a hunger that cannot be sated by any other person on this Earth.

  I was very young when you died, but even at that young age you were my everything. My life revolved around you, my heart was matched with yours in every way. When I sat in your lap and you held me, I felt so safe, protected and loved. I remember your eyes, the way you looked at me, and when I look in the mirror now I see them looking back at me. I never imagined there would be a time when you would not be with me.

  You took to your bed for a few months before you died. I knew you were ill but I didn’t know how badly, I was not told. Well, how do you explain to a young child about death? Yet a child in this situation still wants and needs that knowledge. I wanted to understand but nothing was said. So I continued to lie with you on the bed, never wanting to be any other place, just accepting, your arms around me for hours.

  The day came when you passed. There have only been a couple of other days like it, when my brothers came to join you. The pain that shot through me then tore me apart and broke me into pieces that took a long time to fix. I was not allowed to go to your funeral and I was suddenly supposed to carry on... But how? What was I to do without you?

  It seems strange now that all through the years since then I didn’t think you were with me - I thought you’d left me. The one person who would have been there didn’t seem to care. I was very angry for a long time; it would have been good to talk to someone, to have had some explanation, but none came from anyone.

  These days, I know you are with me. These days, you live in my heart and I feel that old familiar love very close and it makes me smile. Some day we will be together again as we belong. We need to be close to one another and it occurs to me that we must always have been, for our souls are entwined. So Daddy, hold me close as I hold you now. Walk by my side in the light of love, in the light of spirit, and know that all is well. We are together.

  I Miss You

  As you lay there in the dark and the tears flowed, didn’t you know I was holding your hand? Didn’t you realise that the love I had for you was still there?

  I know how much you miss me. I know you want to feel me next to you. I want that very much too. Close your eyes and reach out for me. I am there, just a short way from your heart. I can feel it beating. I can feel so much more about you and I can hear your thoughts. Feel me as our souls touch and join together in the deepest love. Hold me.

  Tell me your pains, your troubles, for as long as you wish. Let’s make it forever - or is that not long enough? No matter what happens, the love we have will never diminish in any way. I cared for you so much in the physical world and I do so still. I am not helpless, believe me, I just have another way to show it now. But it is just as positive.

  So hold out your arms to me and I shall walk into them. I shall hold you and never let you go.

  Missing

  I cannot eat, I cannot sleep, I weep

  for you my love, my missing heart is torn apart.

  You swore that you would never leave,

  always believe in the love we had created over so much time.

  We danced our tune and every day

  it played for us, but now I find you’ve gone another way.

  You promised always to be by my side.

  I loved you dearly but you only loved me merely

  as a passing fancy, so it seems.

  And now I stare at broken dreams.

  What am I to do today? Should I go or should I stay?

  I can’t think, I’ll flip a coin and do whatever fate decides

  because I have to make some choices,

  even though I cannot voice them yet.

  Now you’re apologising for the pain?

  I really don’t want that again, can’t listen any more

  to pleading lies. You crossed your heart and hoped to die

  and I would fall for every word,

  so many promises for life ahead I heard.

  How do I cope now, what must I do?

  Yes, I am bereft, I really did believe in you;

  but I shall cope, I’ll find another

  and a truer love to share my life.

  I’ll not give up on my desires nor fail to feel

  because of you and what was never real.

  Clarity will come with hope and smiles,

  I’ll walk the miles and take my journey on

  to meet my soul mate.

  Ours was just a path we had to travel day by day, unravelling

  the mystery of life.

  So go your way!

  Hope

  Tell me, how have you survived?

  Tell me what you did to make it through.

  Did you think you were alone? That I was not there?

  How could you doubt me?

  The love that was there before has never gone away.

  I am connected to you through love, the most beautiful emotion of our Earthly life.

  And love will be brought to you by many others, in many different ways throughout your life. It will be love that lifts your heart, your soul and your mind, and devastates you in equal measure.

  Be inspired. Don’t give in to the illusions all around you. Never give up. Listen to my heart beating close to yours, for it is one and the same.

  We can never be apart.

  Loneliness

  Each day we are surrounded by so many people, so many different souls; some we like and some we don’t like and that’s okay. So many people - and yet we still sometimes feel lonely. Why is that?

  Friends contact us daily or weekly and ask us how we are. We tell them what they want to hear and then all goes silent because they don’t fill in the gap we feel; they do not ease the empty feeling inside. It’s easy to relate to that feeling and embrace it. In some ways we should, but we must never let it consume us. We must make sure we know its place, because once it overtakes our emotions then we own it and it becomes more than it should be.

  We do have a tendency to exaggerate the problems of life, it’
s true, but then the way one person feels in a situation is different to another. For one thing, we cannot assume that everyone has the level of learning needed to cope with an issue. Again, even though an individual does have the same learning we have experienced, they may not feel the same. We can’t judge the level of feeling any other person has. We only know what we feel, even if we don’t know how to let it go or express it. Maybe for a while it is necessary for it to be there, to show us the way forward; even difficult feelings and situations can sometimes be a blessing, making us look at the world differently.

  Different is good. It denotes change and change is a positive step even if we deem it to be painful. The change needs to come from within us as we start to identify how we feel, as we see for example who cares and who does not, whom we want in our lives and whom we don’t. Some situations take people away while others bring the people in who need to be around us at this time; but we have to pay attention to the details for the meaning is always contained there.

  Loneliness is usually nothing to do with anyone else but oneself. We are almost never alone, so how could we be lonely? We should try to accept ourselves as we are, not look in the mirror and dislike what we see. Rather, love it! Love it for all that we are. We are not perfect for sure, but that does not make any difference - none of us are perfect on this Earth, not one person. That should make us feel a little better. The conflict is usually within ourselves and we have to feel a contentedness within ourselves first before we can we feel content with our fellow man. It is there, I promise, but we do have to look for it inside.

  Then we must feel it, find the confidence and smile on the inside and on the outside, even if we don’t feel like it. We must keep trying - faking it until we make it, but never giving up. Within us is all we need for our lives, an incredible capacity for love and strength for ourselves and for others. We all have it so we must let it flow, let our love love us. We must not allow ourselves to believe no-one loves us - it’s just not true for we are always cherished and protected. It just takes a certain frame of mind to accept that, so we should search it out and hold on to it with all our heart. Look within and we will never go without.

  The love we need is maybe to come, maybe in our life now, or maybe past and living on in our mind. But when we leave this Earth we take with us only the experiences of this life, the memories and the love we have experienced. So we should believe in our love, our magic, and make it a good life!

  Lost?

  Have you wandered off alone and lost your way?

  Walking in circles, nothing sure, not even

  what you’re looking for...

  a little peace, the strength to say

  “Please help”?

  Some quiet, familiar voice once in a dream

  told me there are guides

  and others with me by my side

  and I’m part of their team

  it seems.

  They’re always there to ease my soul,

  to lift me out of loss and pain

  and make me strong again,

  so I in turn can help others feel whole

  and loved.

  So I learned to listen to my mind,

  and speak with them in their state of bliss,

  so not a word is ever missed.

  And now it’s easier than you’d think,

  I find.

  You too can find the answers that you need

  by listening to the words you hear

  within your head, not in your ear,

  by trusting that your guides

  will plant the seed.

  Side by Side

  I can see you as you sit by the bed, holding your child’s hand as they slip in and out of consciousness. You want so much for them to wake up and be well, and indeed we want that too, but the choice belongs to them - it always has.

  Why are some children born with ailments or develop them so young? It’s a difficult question often pondered by so many, especially when they are going through that experience. It is very hard to explain in a way that would sound acceptable to your human understanding; but these things happen at all ages. The pain of seeing your child very ill is the scariest feeling. But you can cope - indeed, you are more resilient than you give yourself credit for.

  Your doctors on Earth are excellent and work tirelessly to expand their knowledge of the physical body and of the mind, but they generally know little about the spirit. That is our job. We are here to shore you up and strengthen you to deal with the greatest of pain, even when you do not feel that you can get through it. Everyone is someone’s child and it is this parental aspect that is so challenging every day of your life. Of course, the child will not understand this until they have become a parent themselves, how could they? There is nothing like experience to concentrate the mind and help one learn the lesson more deeply.

  You should also understand that you are our children, whom we nurture and protect as much as we can within your chosen path. There are limits to what we can do, but we can also do even more than we already do if you would only ask, only believe in us and in the power of the Light, which is our great parent. It is watching over us and over you, all-knowing, all-seeing and never judging. It helps us create the realities of our worlds even though we may not realise it. But He sees everything and we do not. Trust, faith, belief - these are words that require all of us to know the possibility that there is more. More for you and yours; more within you than you give yourself credit for.

  But right now, all you want is for the hand you are holding to squeeze yours, and for them to know that you are there. Believe me, they do know. And we look after you in the same way that you look after yours. You may feel helpless right now and entirely reliant on human knowledge; but be just as confident that in the unseen world we are assisting you and your child too. Send us your love and ask more people to send their love, for we can work with that and transmute it into something quite beautiful that will bring great ease.

  We have used the example of a child, but be assured that it is the same for everyone; no-one is ever left alone when they are unwell in your world. There are always unseen hands supporting everyone involved. Remember the power of prayer, for truly it can change so much. Every word is heard. Every request is processed. No-one gets left out. And when it is time to pass on to our world, you are welcomed as if you are the most important soul; we know your value even if you do not. So please learn this and be valuable to yourself and to your loved ones. Feel the power of love in your lives. And try to live in the now, with the laughter, the pain and the sorrow, for each of these has a part to play in your life.

  We send our love and support to all children of every age, so they know they have a friend standing shoulder to shoulder with them. Right now, no matter where you are and whether you are happy or not, we are always there with you. Close your eyes, whisper your prayers and wishes, and we will fold our arms of love around you to let you know that we are listening.

  Do Not Fear Death

  Do not fear death. It is a fleeting part of life, just another step on the journey of you. There really is nothing to be afraid of; you have chosen the point of your birth and of your death and everything inbetween. Each person has their very own vibration, tune and dance which your soul knows very well. You are never in the wrong place; you may not agree, but that is a fact. When you know this, there is liberation in these words. You are always supported by the unseen people who work with you in the spirit world and you are never, ever alone.

  Open your eyes to the amazing possibility of you. Start believing you are beautiful, strong and worthwhile. Do not let any situation hold you back; just let it pass you by with a smile because another will come to replace it just as quickly. Movement is necessary and it is found within the stillness.

  Within each of you is a spiritual connection, a direct line to planes of love. How do you access it? Well, stop trying for a start. The secret is to allow it. Let what is to be come around you even if it causes you to be
uncomfortable because, when that passes and the stillness returns, it will be all the more special.

  So understand you are not forgotten. Know that your thoughts connect to the unseen world daily. Recognise that and make them strong and positive - leave negativity at the door. Take off that heavy coat of worry and strain that you have been carrying for so long and be free. To make a change, you have to make a decision to make a change - one small step on the path can bring amazing opportunities. You changed the path and the smile on your face makes it all worthwhile.

  What is your intention? Find it. Just remember to look within yourself each day, for that is where the magic is held. Let a little out. Be brave, the journey is so worth it.

  The Way Out

  I was sorely stuck in a big black hole,

  I don’t know how...

  But when I peeped inside to check,

  what I saw made my cry

  for the pains I had were etched upon the veil.

  Others had wanted to me to follow them,

  and I’d done so out of fear

  of being left alone.

  But then I read some words that

  told me how to

  live in this place, this Earth, this now.

  And so I left the dark place within

  where all my demons live

  and came out from behind the rock.

  I shook my head clear

  and started being me,

  no matter that I’m not following any more.

  And I felt the strength inside

  to free myself of all the chains I’d placed upon my soul

  and knew that

  I no longer needed to fight.

  Soul Growth

  Have you watched someone die? Have you watched someone suffer with illness in the body or mind until they leave? Many of you have at some point in your lives and most of you think that they have gone to somewhere better; some call it Heaven and indeed if that is what you want to call it, that’s fine by us. There are many names for this place and everyone is welcome in it, no matter what religion or faith they belong to or not.

  We find it strange that death seems to be such a taboo as death is just a part of the life that you live on this planet. There should be no fear. What is it precisely that you are scared of? Believe me, there should be no fear as there is only beauty, only love here; this is a place that is always open to you, an amazing place where everyone becomes who they really are, complete, whole and full of life.